Taking the reins.

I have always hid a part of myself from people. The only one that knows my vulnerable side is my Hero, Sean. I have been dealing with the the affects of Miller Fischer syndrome aka bi-latteral bells palsey and the many side affects that go along with it.

My self esteem has been the hardest 'thing' to regain besides the loss of my boobs... maybe my humor could use some work, too. Ha Ha. When I create plaques, clocks, bows, or anything despite the reason. I feel myself coming back to me in pieces of sand.

I look different. I have regained most of my nerve conections in my face, enough that people who don't know me don't notice my limitations immediately. But friends who have not seen me in a year say I look different. That is hard to take. People who willingly get their face altered surgically go into surgery desiring some improvement. I knew that I wasn't a 8,9 or 10 but I was content with me. Now, I don't feel like I fit on the grid because every 4-6 weeks I look different. I have made a huge transformation from Quasimoto, what I call my face when it was completely paralized for 2 months, to this new image that I can't nickname. Everytime I hear "You look different'' it hurts , weither it is said with good intentions or not. It makes it hard.

I am willing to do what is needed to return my body back to its full health. It eat well. I walk 2.5 miles nightly in less than 45 min. I am recommitting myself to me. It only improves my relationship with everyone family, friends, clients, strangers, etc.

I will create more beautiful pieces than I ever have before. I know I can do it. I will return stronger and probably still not funny.

( The reason for my unusual post - My Dr. Wong, Neurologist, asked my to get real with loved ones about what stage I am in. Others need to be reinvolved into my life. This gives me a safe out. I will succeed! )

Love ya'll
Kris

Time To Be Creative!

Katie Loves her new throne!
... so do the boys.


Katie can get easily in and out of her chair.

Our Family night board. It turned out great! We are creating our own characters to represent each of us. This will help get the kids excited for family night.

The chair is a rocker.

I am very proud of what I have made. I really needed some down time and in a matter of hours on each project I made two awesome pieces.

Katies Bows

Katie gets great reception with her Leia bows. She wobbles her head side to side and sooner than later she pulls them out to destroy.
Kris doesn't mind. She loves making them for Katie. Usually during her 20 minute break Kris can bust out 2 sets.


The last of Braxtons' long hair.It was inbetween his eyebows and lashes and after 3 haircut on Sat. It is now boy short. He is a new kid.

Aldens Fourth Birthday

Wanted to share with all of you some of the fun we had.

Alden wants to go to Makutus next time. After going to Laurens birhtday party there. I can see why. It was so much fun!!

Laurens B day at Makutos

Lauren turned four years old two weeks before Alden but they had their birthdays on the same day.
Alden loved Lauren birthday. He had a lot of fun.

Naptime at Ruckus Kids

We are exhausted. The kids all crahsed. Yes there are 8 little ones sleeping all at once. It is a miracle. :)

Logans' & Aldens 4th Bday

Thanks Alden. Happy 4th Birthday!!
This is good!

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YUMMYYY. Brax ate his enjoying every bite.

We went to Logans for dinner. Alden was turning 4 years old and we needed a fun place to eat. Sean and I were beat. The floor was covered in peanut shells and the boys were happy to contribute to the mess.

The food was great!! The boys loved the kids meals and the rolls and cinnamon butter. Brax was in heaven. It was odd to request a table for a family of six. We don't go out to eat too often, so it was an awakening moment.

Our server was friendly. The boys loved how tall he was. Alden asked if he was a cowboy. The waiter totally lived up to the image.